~Fallen Ch.12 ~

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“ Hi Kay, it’s me, Gwen.” The blond woman took the chair next the bed, and sat down facing her sister-in-law. The girl’s motionless face was freshly scrubbed, but the blank look was still there in her eyes, as if you could look right through her. “ Jessica dropped some stuff for you, clothes, cd's, there’s even a teddy bear.” “ I didn’t peg you for the teddy bear kind of girl, but then you’re not exactly a ‘what you see is what you get’ type of girl are you.”

“ I met Dr. McKoy last night, she told me to call her Jody, and you’re right she is a little weird, but I think she’s okay.” “She wants us to talk you like we ordinarily would, but we didn’t really talk, so I’m at a loss as to what to say.” “ I’ve never really been in this kind of situation before except…” She moved forward in the chair, and set her arms on thighs.” Sheridan and I knew this girl in boarding school; she was about two years ahead of us, and she was the most popular girl there, she was dating a Kennedy cousin and every one wanted to be her. Our fathers wanted us to get to know her, but we were still kind of shy and we thought she be like the rest of the stuck up people we knew, so we keep putting it off.” “ Then one day we finally got he courage to talk to her, and she was really nice, her name Kim, and she quickly became our role model, we tried to do everything she did, until um…”
Gwen took a deep breath and wiped a tear away.” Then three days before parents weekend, she flipped out, took a bottle of sleeping pills, and that was it, she was gone.”

“ The school counselors, tried to talk to us, but I didn’t want to, it seemed so pointless.” “ I mean one day I had this friend, and the next day I didn’t and no one really knew why.” “ I feel that why now, one day I had this sister-in-law, that I wanted to get to know, and the next day I don’t, and I’m feeling cheated, and this time I need to say some things.” “ I’m mad at you Kay, all the times we’ve talked you showed me this fake smile and phony personality of this stepford daughter, and when I do get to see the real glimpse it’s after you almost kill yourself, and then you try again. “ “ I really like Kay, you’re so different from the other people I usually met, and I don’t want to lose this friendship that I’m just finding.” “ The truth is that most people think I’m a bitch, except for Sheridan and Ethan, that whole Theresa thing didn’t help my image at all, and I’d like to think that you were going to join the list of people that really knew me.” “ What I really what to say is that I’m here for you, I don’ know what happened to get you here either time, but know that I am here for you.” An old fear began inside her heart and Gwen grabs Kay’s, hand and gives it a gentle squeeze.” No matter what, I’m here for you.”

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“ Hey Katy Dids.” Ethan bend down to his sister and kissed her cheek, flinching at how cold she felt. “ I brought you some goodies, white chocolate, snicker doodles, and Laffy Taffy.” “ All your favorites, oh who I’m kidding their my favorites too.” He picked up one of the cookies, and bit into it.” I really wish you would start talking again, I could use your help.” He sat down on the edge of her bed, and smiled at her ruefully.” Things are going good, I started at Crane Industries yesterday, and Theresa’s actually doing a pretty good job, as my boss, and I saw little Ethan.” “ I’m so confused Katy Dids, I was afraid that working with Theresa would stir up old feelings, but it hasn’t, and I …” “ This sounds really strange, but I don’t think I was in love with Theresa.”

He jumps off the bed and begins pacing.” I know you’re thinking that’s crazy. I do too, but it’s like I’m spending time with her working and I think this is fine, but I really can’t wait til it’s time to go home to get to Gwen.” “ This is ridiculous, I’ve been in love with Theresa for, while it seems like forever, it’s just not possible is it?” Ethan looks back to Kay hoping for a response, but only sees her blank stare. “ I can’t believe I’m sitting her wasting our time, talking about this thing with Theresa.” He retakes his sit on the edge of her bed, taking her hand in his.” I talked to Dad, this morning, why didn’t you tell about Grace, Kay?” “ This has been going on for months and you didn’t say anything to me, none of you did, I could have helped.” “ But then you didn’t tell me any of what was really going on in your life did you, Kay, not Grace, not this problems at school, I guessed about Miguel, but nothing else, you really didn’t trust me with any thing did you?” “ But then why would you, I’ve only really been your brother for the last year, not nearly enough time, to build that kind of trust for any of this stuff really, but I am here.” “ And even thought it doesn’t look like you trust, me I’m here, because I love you, and you’re my little sister, and I want to help you, but you’re going to have to tell me what’s going on.”

Ethan moved off the be and picked up his coat, feeling something in the pocket, he opened it up and smiled.” I have something else for you.” He moved to her night stand and propped up a small x-ray picture.” This is your niece, we haven’t decided on a name yet, but maybe when you come out of this you can help us pick one out.” He leaned down, and kissed her cheek.” I’ll see you tomorrow.”

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“ Wow, you’ve been busy.” Kay sat there stationary not even blinking at  his entrance. “ Oh you’re still not talking, that must be new for you.” “ Come on Kay, I know you’re dying to say something to me, come on say something.”

Antonio released an impatient sigh, when she continued to stare at the wall. “ Fine, give me the silent treatment, it’ll be easier to talk to you anyway.” “ I had a talk with your ‘friend’ Miguel.” A look of pure disgust clouded Antonio’s face. “ The little punk wouldn’t tell me what he said to you, but you can bet he won’t be coming back here any time soon for anything other then medical care.”

He moved to sit down in the chair, by the bed, and looked at her. The first thing he ever remembered about meeting Kay when she was little was her eyes, they were gray, and even at his advanced age of seven he had never seen gray eyes, her eyes had fascinated him for days on end. Now however the once beautiful gray eyes were now emotionless, and clear. “ I was thinking about what you told me the other day, about why you tried the first time…that feeling you got.” “ I was up all night trying to figure it out, and then like a bolt of lightening it came to me, neither one of us was really in love, my parents were in love, and I don’t think my mother ever experienced the pain we did, and that make me think we’re weren’t in love.” “ Love is special it’s hope, and all the best feelings you’ve ever had, and yeah sometimes it’s hard, but you should never feel like life should end simply because you don’t have it.” “ That’s all I had about that, I know you tired of hearing it, but until you tell me to shut up, I guess I’ll keep talking.”

“ You know Jody’s my doctor too, and uh… get this she thinks she can save me, or that this drug she crated can save me.” “ I just have to risk going blind, and or dying from kidney failure.” “ Luis and Mama don’t like it, then don’t trust Jody and they don’t like the risk, Eve is opposed to it as well, truthfully I’m starting to think that she doesn’t like Jody, but all this is going on living me in the middle wondering what to do?” He stood up and moved by the window staring out at the Harmony skyline. “ I don’t know you, it really doesn’t seem to matter one way or the other, the drugs are no guarantee, so I’m still dying anyway.” He pushed himself off the window, and walked back toward her shaking his head.” I’m sorry. I’m supposed to be giving you a reason to come back, and I’m probably just depressing you more.” Grabbing his coat, he leaned down and gave her a kiss on the cheek. “ You keep fighting Kay.”

“ You too.”