A Passion That Can't Be Denied - Chapter 21
by juliancranealways
 
 

“What’s your pleasure my love, jazz, soul, soft rock?” he said looking for a station.

“Honestly I don’t know, I can’t believe I am doing this, only for you Julian.”

“Thank you Eve, you won’t regret it.”

“We will see.”

He continued searching.

“Stop there!” she said suddenly.

“You like this love?”

“Yes, it’s Norah Jones.”

“Yes I like her, she is great, and this sounds familiar.” Julian said.

“It is called I’ve Got To See You Again.”

“That’s right, I can’t wait to hear you Eve.”

He sat down next to her on the bed, and he watched her intently, the anticipation almost unbearable. He couldn’t take his eyes off of her, although they weren’t in the Blue Note, this was just as nice, more personal. Eve stared at Julian for a minute, this was almost like overcoming a hurdle for her, but she would do it for him. She closed her eyes for one moment and focused on the music.

Lines on your face don't bother me
Down in my chair when you dance over me
I can't help myself
I've got to see you again

When she started, Julian smiled, loving every minute of her soulful and sexy voice. He was in complete awe, as she sounded even more amazing now. He looked at her; he could tell she had truly missed it by her expression.

Late in the night when I'm all alone
And I look at the clock and I know you're not home
I can't help myself

I've got to see you again
I could almost go there
Just to watch you be seen
I could almost go there
Just to live in a dream

Her voice became stronger as it went on and she watched Julian, loving so much that he supported her in this. She truly had missed it, he was right, it had been so long and when she thought back to Whitney that night, she realized suddenly from her own experience why Whit wanted to be a singer. Julian was completely mesmerized by Eve, the same exact look that Fox had with Whitney that night.

But no I won't go for any of those reasons
To not touch your skin is not why I sing
I can't help myself
I've got to see you again

Julian wanted so much to be near her, words couldn’t describe what he was feeling at that very moment. All he knew was that this was the reason he fell madly in love with her, it was the beginning of what they had and all of a sudden, he was reliving it right there.

I could almost go there....

No I won't go to share you with them
But oh even though I know where you've been
I can't help myself
I've got to see you again

When Eve finished, she stared at Julian, wondering exactly what he thought.

“You can be honest with me Julian, if I need some work then…”

But before she could finish the sentence, Julian pulled her close to him, kissing her like he had never kissed her before. He couldn’t stop, he was so drawn to her, so proud of her, and he felt like he was home again, like his heart was completely intertwined with hers for the first time in many years. The love he had for her was so strong, it had always been, but seeing her pour her heart out through song, remembering her passion, made him love her even more. There was no question in his mind or his heart that he and Eve were always meant to be together.

“I take it was okay then?” Eve asked.

“Darling, it was more than okay, it was amazing, beautiful, everything I imagined it to be, oh Eve, I love you so much.”

“Thank you for your kind words.”

“I mean it Eve, it was… I don’t know, I just know it made me feel so happy, and you looked delighted love.”

“I am Julian, I feel exhilarated, I think you are right, perhaps I should pursue it in some direction.”

“I will help you Eve, no matter what it takes.” He said holding her.

“I never thought I would sing again, I can’t believe I just did. My life has been so different with T.C.”

“Yes it has, he doesn’t know the real you and it’s unfortunate because you are an incredible woman. And you deserve all the love and support in the world. If you want to be a doctor by day and a singer by night, I will be there for you. I will never stop you from fulfilling anything you want to do.”

“Having your encouragement means everything to me Julian.”

“You will have it, I promise you that Eve, do you mind if I ask you something?”

“Yes Julian?”

“If T.C. had never come into your life after we had broken up, do you think if I had asked you out again years later, you would have said yes?”

“I don’t know Julian, it would have depended what life was like then. But most likely, I probably would have said no because you abandoned me in the first place, how would I have been able to forgive you after breaking my heart like that? But because of what you went through and made the decisions you did, I think you have learned a lot from your mistakes Julian.”

“Oh Eve, I kick myself every day for the decisions I made, but now I have to look to the future, our future.” Julian said.

She touched Julian’s face, admiring the features of the man she had fallen in love with once again. She wanted to make this incredible moment last, she wished she didn’t have to go back home and face T.C. after he had slept with Liz, she wanted only to remain with Julian at that very moment. Sometimes reality was a terrible thing, it was so much better to live the moment, live the fantasy of freezing time and being so happy and content. She loved Julian so much, she just didn’t want to be separated from him for a second, but she knew that they couldn’t stay there forever.

“What would you like to do now my love?” he said smiling sweetly at her.

“Oh I don’t know Julian, but can I say something?”

“Sure Eve.”

“Have you noticed that it seems nearly every time we get together we make love?”

“Does this bother you Eve? I mean I don’t intend for this to be only a sexual relationship.”

“I am not complaining Julian, I am just saying it just seems that way.”

“Well sweetheart, I want to make up for lost time.” He said smiling.

“Well, you are right about that Julian.”

“I love you dearly Eve, in every way, not just physically, emotionally as well. You never have to worry about this just being sex. My heart is bound with yours, it will always be more than just a roll in the sheets with us, we are in love, but speaking as a man, it’s nice too.”

“Yeah, I can see your point being a man.” She said smiling.

“Honest love, I am so in love with you, words just can’t describe it, I have never been in love before Eve, only with you so it’s a feeling I want to cherish forever, no matter where it takes us.”

“You really haven’t been in love before, at all? Not even with Ivy, not even a little bit?” Eve asked.

“Well I suppose so, I mean we did have children together, but I have never had those feelings I have with you. They say you are just supposed to know when you find the one, and I know it’s you Eve, I have no doubts with you and I never will which is why I will be completely faithful to you and always love you.”

“Faithful Julian?”

“I don’t have the best track record, I know that, you can call me a player, a womanizer, anything you want really because I know that I put a few notches on the old belt Eve, but there will be no more of them, I love you too much to ever ruin what we have.” Julian said.

“Every time I look at you, I still can’t believe that you are the same Julian Crane I knew years ago, what an amazing transition, it’s unbelievable.” |

“It’s because of you Eve that I have changed my ways, I never want to be an evil person ever again, I never want to be like my father. He may want to be a jerk and try to keep Sheridan and Luis apart, but I don’t think that’s right. I believe that Sheridan and Luis belong together just like we do Eve. |”

“Julian?”

“Yes my love?”

“Why does Alistair try so hard to keep Luis and Sheridan apart? Why does he hate Luis so much?” Eve asked.

Julian’s mind raced quickly.

“Well Eve, it’s really a lot of things.”

“But Luis is a great guy, he loves Sheridan so much.”

“Yes he does, I know he truly does and all I want is for my sister to be happy.”

“Can’t you talk to your father?”

“Eve, you know how he felt about us, he is certainly not going to make an exception for Sheridan.”

“Yes you are right about that, but that’s another thing we should discuss, how the heck are we going to tell your father that we are an item?” Eve asked.

“You know what darling, I don’t think we should even worry about him right now, even though his eyes and ears are everywhere, or as my father says, T.C. is our main concern right now, don’t worry Eve, we will work everything out, I promise you.” He said hugging her.

“I hope so, I have been putting off the inevitable, and I hate it, I know we have to tell the truth Julian, I can’t live with these lies anymore. I need to come clean, I think a large weight will be lifted off of me if we do.”

“I know Eve, well we can’t do it right now, but I know something we can do to take your mind off of it, our minds off of it.” Julian said smiling.

“Well I think that might make me feel better.”

“I just think it might Eve.” He said looking at her.

Eve lay down on the bed, knowing exactly what Julian wanted. After all, they had been interrupted due to the sighting of an insect. But now that that was taken care of, they were ready to continue where they left off. Julian kissed Eve from head to toe, her clothes and his on the floor within seconds it seemed. He took no time at all in showing her just how much he loved her. She held Julian so tight as he kissed her, she still wanted so badly to just be able to go home with him that night, but she hoped and prayed that it would be soon. Julian was more aggressive with her this time around, but she loved just how sexual he was in different ways, knowing exactly when to turn up the heat and when to be more gentle. Julian knew how to please Eve in every way and they were so compatible inside the bedroom and out. When he was ready to let go, he moaned in Eve’s neck, each time being like the first time they had ever made love. And the more they did, the more it seemed like neither had ever been with anyone else. Eve may have been married for years and Julian had been with his fair share of women, but nothing could ever compare to the amazing time they had when they became one.

“Oh Eve.” He said looking into her eyes.

“Julian, I love you, I want you, I don’t want to leave you.” She said sadly.

“I know my dear, I don’t want to leave you either, but I promise you, soon enough we will be together, until then I want to spend every waking moment I can with you, being with you, making love to you, just everything.” Julian said.

“I want to stay all night, please tell me we can.” Eve said.

“Of course we can, I am not going anywhere.”

“I don’t want to be alone tonight and I would be if I went home to T.C. He would just treat me coldly; being in the same bed lately with him has been awful. He hasn’t even held me, nothing, I feel unloved, neglected by him.” Eve said.

“I will never do that to you Eve, you will never be neglected by me, I want you to feel loved.”

Julian pulled up the covers and Eve snuggled up to him, her head upon his chest. He looked at her, stroking her hair, as they were still undressed and keeping each other warm.

“Julian?”

“Yes Eve?”

“When can we see each other again?”

“When do you work?” Julian asked.

“Actually tomorrow, so I might have to wait another day, is that okay with you?”

“Yes dear, as I told you before, work is work, is there something you want to do, besides making love?” he said smiling.

“How about we go for dinner and a movie?”

“A movie, great idea Eve, I haven’t done that in ages, Rebecca thinks she is too good for that and Ivy preferred satellite, that would be fun sweetie.”

“I don’t have the riches like that Julian, besides I think you have to do normal things.”

“You are right Eve, that is why we are so good together, you make any time we spend together wonderful, I like to do fun things, I mean when we cooked that night, I had a blast really Eve. So a date at the movies would be so great.”

“Okay, but how can you get around it with Rebecca?” Eve asked.

“Don’t you worry about her, I can handle Becky, I don’t care what it takes, and we are going on that date Eve.”

Julian and Eve talked a while before going to sleep in each other’s arms. The next day, they said their goodbyes and Eve couldn’t wait to see him for their date, she planned on making up something to tell T.C., but he was barely home, she figured he was off on another adventure with Liz, so it worked out for her to see Julian. She had decided to wear something a bit more casual, they were having a romantic evening together, but they were just going for a bite to eat before the movies. When Julian picked her up, she had on a pair of jeans as he did too, something she didn’t see him in too often, he was in suits most of the time. She loved him in anything he wore, but the jeans were something different.

“You look great Eve.” He said smiling.

“Their only jeans Julian, just like you are wearing, but you look great too.”

“Well they show off one of your best assets, turn around love.” He said winking.

She laughed at Julian and they were on their way. They decided to stay clear of any place like the Lobster Shack, they never knew who was there or if anyone knew T.C. or Rebecca. They had to still be very discreet at this stage, so they grabbed something quick and headed to the movies.

“Eve, do you want anything, a drink, popcorn? Whatever you like, just ask.”

“Julian, I have to watch my figure.”

“No that’s for me to watch sweetheart, you always look great, come on Eve, you can live a little.” Julian said.

“I really shouldn’t.” Eve said.

“It’s okay, come on, let me treat you, if you want, I will even get something. I haven’t been to the movies in so long, probably the last time they were still in black and white.” He said laughing.

“Fine, but I want something small then.” Eve said.

Julian went up to the concession stand and ordered.

“I want the biggest popcorn and drink you have.” He said to the kid.

“Julian!”

“Sweetie, it was a better deal to do it this way.”

“Since when do you care about the cost?”

“I don’t, but why get two of each when we can get one large one to share?” Julian said smiling.

“Okay Mr. Crane whatever makes you happy.” She said humoring him.

She offered to carry something, but Julian shook his head.

“You have your purse to carry, unless you want me to carry that too.”

“No that’s fine, I think you have enough to handle there.” Eve said smiling.

They went in and Eve led him up the stairs.

“Go to the top Eve.”

“You mean make out row?”

“Is that what they call it now, I just figured with me being thirty-nine and holding, it might be better for me to see.” He said laughing.

“You will be able to see no problem Julian wherever we sit, don’t you worry.”

“Oh I am not worried, but at the top, at least I can stuff my face with popcorn and no one will be any the wiser.” He said smiling.

“You really haven’t been to the movies in a long time have you?” Eve asked.

“Nope, this is going to be so much fun.” He said like a kid in a candy store.

The movie started and Eve smiled at him as Julian tried to play it cool, as he put his arm around her.

“Oh give me a break.” She said laughing.

“What Eve?”

“The old yawn and your arm just happened to end up around me right, what is this, one of those classic date moments?” Eve said smiling.

“Hey this is a classic date, you wanted to do a movie night honey.”

“I know Julian, I am just teasing you.”

“Here have some popcorn.”

“In a bit Julian.”

“But it’s the best right now, in an hour, the butter will be all dried up.”

“You are persistent Julian, okay I will take some popcorn.”

“Don’t forget your drink.” He said.

“Yes I know and thank you.”

She laughed at him, he meant well, he was just trying to make it a special night for them and she was having fun. Eve sat there watching the film intently; Julian couldn’t help but stare at her. He was so happy to be there with her at that moment. He put the popcorn down and took her other hand, playing with her fingers. She smiled at him, but then turned to watch the movie again. Julian tried to watch it himself, but couldn’t take his eyes off of her and began kissing her neck.

“Julian?”

“Uh huh.”

“Why are you doing that, I thought you wanted to see the movie.”

“I do, but I can’t help myself.”

“Why?”

“Because honey, I love you.”

“You just paid good money to buy me junk food and pay for a movie, surely you don’t want to waste it.”

“Eve, I just want to be with you, no matter what, the money isn’t important.”

Julian smiled at her and again she tried to focus on the movie. He looked around, there were not too many people in there and he played with her hair, watching her once more.

“Julian Crane!” she said laughing.

“I know, I don’t listen, I’m sorry.”

“What is this movie about so far, can you answer that question?” Eve asked.

“Um, its its…”

“See, I knew it, come on now pay attention to it.”

“Okay Eve.”

He sat there, pretending to pout, but actually watched it for a while. Eve laid her head against him, and he held her tight to him. When she motioned for him to bring over the popcorn, she took a handful and looked into his eyes, but put it back in the bag when Julian leaned forward and gave her a very sweet kiss on the mouth. He put the bag down and pulled her close, their kiss becoming more passionate and when they stopped, she looked at him and shook her head.

“What Eve?”

“You know, you are going to give new meaning to the term make out row, not to mention people are going to be telling us to get a room.” She said laughing.

“Hey so what, we will have to get one then, just because we are not teenagers, doesn’t mean we can’t kiss in here.” He said.

“I know that you are just trying to be romantic.”

“I am Eve, I told you I never do things like this and it’s nice for a change, can I help it that I can’t resist you?” Julian said.

Eve smiled and kissed him again, her lipstick off by time they had finished.

“I might as well not even wear anything on my mouth Julian.”

“Probably not a good idea, I can wear it off pretty quickly.” He said smiling.

When the movie was over, Julian took her by the hand and just as they went to step outside, Eve suddenly ran to the washroom, not even getting a chance to say anything to him. He was surprised, but figured the drink was pretty large so he thought nothing of it. When she came back, she looked at him.

“Honey, are you okay, you are a bit pale all of a sudden.”

“Julian, I’m sorry.”

“For what love?”

“For wasting dinner and the popcorn, I just threw it all up.”

“Oh no Eve, I’m so sorry, do you think the meal was off?” He asked.

“I don’t know, but I just couldn’t keep it down.”

“Uh oh, well if you are not feeling well, we can cut the night short, maybe take a hot bath and get into bed, I could tuck you in if you want.” He said putting his arms around her.

“I don’t know what it is Julian, perhaps the food was off.”

“I will be writing a letter to them.” Julian said.

“No need, sometimes certain things just don’t agree with a person.”

“I feel so bad Eve, I wanted this to be a special night.”

“It was Julian, but things happen, don’t worry, I still had a good time.” Eve said.

As he drove her home, she laid her head back against the seat, her face still a bit pale. He looked at her, quite concerned.

“Eve, could you be getting the flu, did you get your shot?”

“Yes Julian, I doubt it’s that, I will see how I feel in the morning.”

“Okay, I want you to call me, I want to make sure you are okay or I will call you. If you are sick still, perhaps I can stop by the store and get you some soup, or whatever you need.” Julian said.

“I will call you when I get up and thanks.” Eve said.

He dropped her off and when she opened the car door, he gave her a little kiss; not wanting to keep her so she could get some rest.

“I love you Eve.”

“I love you too Julian.”

He watched her to make sure she was okay getting in and was on his way. Eve took a bath that night and crawled into bed, feeling all of a sudden like a truck had hit her. She wondered if Julian was right, that perhaps she was getting the flu, but she would try to sleep it off. But when she woke up the next morning, she felt worse, T.C. was gone again off to the youth centre or so he said. She sat up for a minute, but felt so dizzy and nauseated, she felt like her energy had been zapped from her body. She lay down again and was just rolling over to go to sleep again when the phone rang. She struggled to reach as it seemed so far away but finally got it.

“Hello.” She said so quietly.

“Eve, is that you?”

“Yes Julian.”

“I was worried about you Eve, I had to call, how are you feeling?” he asked.

“Awful, I feel so sick to my stomach, I just feel like laying here and doing nothing.” Eve said.

“Oh honey, do you want me to come over and stay with you?”

“No not right now Julian, I would say yes, but I don’t know when T.C. will return and I would just like to be alone for a little while, but thank you.”

“Is it the flu then?”

“Um, I don’t know for sure Julian, but I will know soon enough. I want to go back to sleep for a bit, can we talk later on?”

“Oh of course honey, you get your rest then, I will let you call me when you are feeling up to it.”

Eve hung up the phone and crashed against the pillow, later on she was woken up when T.C. opened the bedroom door.

“What are you doing in bed?” he asked.

“I am not feeling well, you were at the youth centre?”

“Um yeah.” He said avoiding eye contact with her.

Eve figured he was lying to her, but wasn’t about to start questioning him on it, she didn’t have the strength or the patience.

“So do you need anything?” T.C. asked.

“Could you get me a glass of ginger ale please?”

“Okay, are you hungry Eve?”

“Yes, but I can’t keep anything down right now, but thanks.”

“Okay, I will be back in a minute with your drink.”

T.C. was being awfully nice to her, but she wondered if it was out of guilt for sleeping with Liz. He returned a few minutes later and handed her the glass.

“Eve, I might not be home tonight, I have a few things to do.” He said bluntly.

“That’s fine T.C., we will catch up later then.”

“Unless you want me to stay here, you don’t look too well, maybe I shouldn’t go.”

“No I will be fine, after all I am a doctor, and I can take care of it.” Eve said.

T.C. went out a few hours later and Eve decided it was just best to stay in bed the entire day. She did want to see Julian, but she had a headache and wasn’t up to talking too much. She slept the rest of the day away and right through the night until the next morning. She had to go to work, so she took a long hot shower and got dressed, but before heading in, she stopped off at the drugstore. She sat down at her desk, looking through her work for the next while when she heard a knock at the door.

“It’s open, come in.”

Julian shut the door behind him.

“I haven’t heard from you, is everything okay?” he asked looking at her.

She stared at him for a few moments, almost in a trance.

“Eve, what’s going on, you are so quiet.”

“Julian?”

“Yes Eve?”

“Julian, I’m…”

But she couldn’t get out the rest of the words. He came towards her, hugging her and smiling.

“I have missed you Eve.”

“I have missed you too.” She said still out of it.

“Eve, I know something is wrong, tell me honey, if there is anything I can do to help you, just ask.”

“You can’t do anything to help this.” Eve said.

“You have the flu don’t you, if you are sick, you should stay home, come on, let’s go, I will drive you.”

“Julian, stop.” She said grabbing his arm.

She looked at him, standing in front of her, concerned for her welfare. She looked into his eyes very carefully, but then looked away.

“Eve, tell me what’s going on.” He said touching her chin.

She stood there, silent, but when she looked directly into his hazel eyes, she felt her eyes fill with tears and he looked at her surprised.

“Oh honey, what’s wrong?” he said holding her.

She held him tightly for a minute, not wanting to let go, tears pouring down her cheeks.

“Oh Julian.” She said finding it hard to stop the tears.

“It’s going to be okay Eve.”

“I wish it was Julian, I really wish it was, but I don’t know.”

“What don’t you know?” He said touching her cheek.

“Oh Julian, I’m pregnant.”

 
And this concludes the second installment of A Passion That Can’t Be Denied, I will continue on with a third installment, thanks for reading.

 
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