The Turns Life Takes (Eve/Julian) - Chapter 20
by yhh



She couldn’t believe it. She, Eve Johnson Russell, now had four daughters. Four beautiful, healthy, intelligent daughters. She was on cloud nine. She had been since Stefan and Sonny had escorted her daughter into the living room. The night before was one big blur. There were tears and tears of joy and introductions all around as Brenda was introduced to her new family. Reading the file that Stefan had prepared, she was sure it was all very overwhelming. Coming from a family with only one sister with whom she wasn't very close to, to this craziness where she had three brothers and two sisters from her father's side of the family and three sisters from her side. Brenda was now the oldest of nine almost overnight.

Due to the numerous family members, she hadn't been able to spend any real time with Brenda. But they had made arrangements to meet at the mansion this morning for breakfast, just the three of them. So here she was up three hours before the breakfast, dressed with no place to go. Walking down the stairs with Brenda's file, she figured she could reread every detail Stefan discovered about her daughter over a cup of coffee. As she walked through the living room, she noticed two figures sleeping on the couch. "Whitney? Simone?" she whispered more to herself.

"It's okay, Mom. We're not really sleep," Whitney answered, stretching and getting up.

"I'm going to the kitchen to make myself some coffee would you two like some?"

"That would be great," Whitney replied.

Eve waited momentarily for Simone to say something, but she didn't. Eve continued to the kitchen and wondered what did it mean that the girls were here. Were they finally willing to talk? She wouldn't get her hopes up when they wanted to be, her daughters could be just as hard-headed as their father, she thought as she put on the coffee and the hot chocolate for Simone.

Whitney and Simone entered the kitchen as Eve sat the mugs on the table.

"Thanks," they both said hurriedly as they took their first sip of their drinks.

"You're welcome." She wondered how she should start this conversation. She was the adult, the parent, it was up to her to start it. "Thank you for coming last night."

"Until Fancy announced that Brenda was a model I kept wondering where I had seen her before," Whitney, ever the peacemaker, commented.

"Yes, she seemed familiar." With a deep breath, she decided to delve into their real issues. "I apologize to you both for allowing my past to hurt you. That was never my intention."

"But you're not sorry for keeping it a secret," Simone accused.

"No," she answered honestly, "I think everyone is entitled to a past. I'm sure they are things that both you and your sister haven't told me. It's natural."

"Don’t try to simplify this. Your secret wasn't 'oops, I took my parents' car out without permission and wrecked it.' You had another family before us. You were some alcoholic, druggie whore who slept with Julian Crane and had his illegitimate child- -"

Eve stood up and slapped Simone across the face.

Simone gasped as she put her hands to her face in shock.

"Don't you dare speak to me that way! I don't care what I've done or do or say, but I am still your mother and you will respect that fact even if you can't stand me. I know you're confused and that's my fault. All your lives, I took the easy way out by letting your father fill your heads up with the Cranes are evil garbage and other than Alistair, the Cranes are just like us. People who live, love, make mistakes, and try to learn from them. I apologize for letting him warp your minds. Yes, I was ashamed of my drug and alcohol usage and that's why I never allowed even a beer to enter our house and somehow I connected that with my singing and that's why I never allowed you to sing. But I think I more than made up for it, by supporting you in karate, gymnastics, bowling, violin, guitar, piano lessons. Art classes, anything other than singing that you asked for I made sure you could do. I made sure that your summers were filled with adventures and we explored new places within the US and abroad. I didn't want you to be like me. A sheltered young girl overly protected with no clue how the real world operated and lacking self-confidence that you would do anything to fit in with others, like I did. I wanted you girls to feel loved, secure, beautiful and to have the family I had for twelve wonderful too short years, before it was cruelly taken from me. With Julian, I thought I had the family I was missing, but once again that family was taken from me. When your father showed an interest in me, I vowed not to do anything to ruin what I felt was my last shot at a family and love. Maybe I made the wrong decision, but if I say that then that means I regret you two or the wonderful years with your dad and I don't. I never imagined not being married to your dad, but the marriage is over. He can never forgive me. I pray that you can, because living a life where you can't forgive others is a sad and lonely life," Eve concluded. "Now if you'll excuse me, I have a breakfast I can't miss." She turned and walked out of the kitchen.

Whitney and Simone looked at each other stunned. Who was that woman who had shown such passion, such anger? She didn't resemble the mother they had grown up with at all.

"She's right," Whitney admitted. "She and Dad have given us the world. Mom was the only reason I didn't spend the entire summer in tennis camp."

"But what about what she did to Aunt Grace? Her troubled past doesn't excuse her for that. It's not Aunt Grace fault that her aunt wasn't more loving or that Alistair Crane was so evil," Simone countered.

Looking at her sister with new eyes, Whitney stared at her. "Do you hear yourself? The accusatory tone of your voice. The way we've treated Mom. And the way Dad is treating her. If I was her, I would have kept my past to myself, too."

"Whitney that's not fair- -"

"What's not fair? Dad throwing her clothes out of the window, pictures of us as a family, calling her all sorts of names in front of the people we've known our whole lives. Was that fair? Yes, he deserved to be upset. But- -" Whitney shook her head. "What would our lives have been like if something happened to Mom and Dad? We would have been lucky and went to live with Uncle Sam and Aunt Grace, but what if we went to live with some relative who was crazy? Mom lived a life, I never want to experience. And the evilness of Alistair. Fox, his own grandson, didn't even want to go to his memorial service. That's how evil he was, his own grandson didn't want to go to his service. And you heard how he hired people to watch Mom. A young girl no older than you and hired the doctors and nurses she trusted to work against her- -"

"But Daddy deserved the truth. Aunt Grace deserved the truth. What about John? He thought he had found his mom finally, but instead he finds out it’s a lie."

"Do you remember when I didn't want to go to tennis camp and I didn't sleep for three days because I was scared to ask Dad? You and I both know he has a temper. Don't you remember the reason we moved in with Kay because he was hitting Endora for just going into the shed? What Mom did to Aunt Grace was completely wrong, but- -" the curly brown haired woman shrugged her shoulders.

"Are you making excuses for her? I can't believe this," Simone said, getting up from the table and pacing the floor. "She's snowed you."

"No, she hasn't snowed me. She's just explained her side to me. And if it comes between choosing to forgive my mom and allow her to continue to be part of my life or spending the rest of my life hearing Dad go on and on about the evil of the Cranes and Mom, when Mom hasn't said one derogatory thing against him, then yes, I guess she has snowed me," the older of the Russell girls said, as she walked out of the kitchen, leaving her younger sister alone with her thoughts.

Yes, their dad's constant rantings and ravings were difficult to hear. But Eve had lied to them their whole lives. Her imaginary junior high and high school tales were just that imaginary. Nothing she told them about her past was true. It was all lies. And she had always come down on them hard for lying, so how did she expect them to suddenly accept her past and forgive her? And now with her family in shambles, she was supposed to accept this new girl into her family? She didn't think so. How could she when all she wanted was her family back the way it was.

"It's never going to happen," Kay commented, dragging herself over to Whitney's left over coffee.

"What isn't it?"

"Your family being the way it used to be. I always knew my mom didn't remember her past and it was just a fact of life. But then when Charity showed up everything became real. After seeing what Aunt Eve is going through, I realize my mom kinda clung to Charity because she was part of a past, a life my mom couldn't remember. But with Charity's arrival our family changed forever. Then along comes John and his dad and more changes occurred. And you know how bad I am with changes. But after seeing Uncle TC's reactions I realized I was my mom's TC- -"

"Kay," Simone said shocked.

"What? I was. I wasn't supportive. Can you imagine how my mom felt to know she had a husband and a kid she didn't even remember? But instead of being understanding, I was selfish, self-absorbed Kay. I whined, complained, caused trouble and picked fights with Charity. My unwillingness to forgive or understand caused a breach between me and my mom which I'm only now starting to feel we'll be able to repair. Don't let years go by without your mom in your life, like I did- -"

"How can you defend her after what she did to your mom?"

Kay wondered how far she should take this conversation. Looking into her best friend's confused, hurt, angry eyes, she decided to pull no punches. "When we pulled up to the house when Uncle TC was throwing your mom's stuff out the window, he asked her for a paternity test."

"For who? Who would need a pat- - Oh my- -" the younger girl shook her head violently. "He couldn’t believe that. He knows we're his daughters. He loves us. No, you misunderstood."

"Why do you think he didn't open the doors when Whitney knocked that night? The only reason he let you back in the house was because you and Whit were anti-Eve. Have you even seen the divorce papers? He's asking for a paternity test before he decides on his custody stance, but your mom didn't want you to know. But if you go upstairs, your toothbrush and Whitney's are gone and have been placed with identical new ones. I love you, Simone. You are my sister, my best friend, but you've got to open your eyes to both sides of the story." Walking up to her friend, Kay kissed the speechless and crying Simone on the cheek then left the younger woman to her tears and thoughts.


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