All those Feelings
 

Theresa opened her eyes and awoke to see a small foot stabbing her in the jaw. She carefully moved Kendra's foot and crawled out of the bed. She sighed as the thought of Chad hit her. "I must have been dreaming last night." She frowned as she looked around her room and saw her dress hung near by. Smiling she looked in the mirror realizing it wasn't a dream. Chad had kissed her, he had told her he cared.
She walked out of her bedroom and walked into Matthew's. He slept peaceful,looking so much like Sheridan. One day he would be older and she could tell him about the woman he looked so much like, his mother. But for now, she could only be there for him. Leaning down she kissed his forehead and then carefully snuck out of the room and headed down the stairs.
Theresa thought about the words Chad had spoke to her. The way he looked down at her like she was the only woman in the world. What she was feeling was amazing, in one swift move Chad had spoke words to her that meant more to her than anything she'd ever heard before.
A pounding at her door stopped her thoughts as she rushed to open the door before Matthew woke up.
She opened it and a figure rushed inside. "I think I messed up last night."
Theresa looked at the tall man in front of her. "Miguel what on earth is wrong with you?" She asked as she watched him pace about the room.
"I kissed her sis. Tell me I'm the dumbest man alive because that's what I feel like. I kissed her." He said stopping to look at Theresa.
"Slow down Miguel. Who did you kiss?"
Miguel sighed. "Gwen, I kissed Gwen. Who else would I kiss?" He asked looking at Theresa as her eyes got wide.
"I don't know. Wait so you kissed Gwen and that's bad?" She said as he shook his head.
"I don't know if it is or not. But she freaked out on me Resa. I mean she was totally nuts for awhile."
"Kind of like you are now?" Theresa grinned.
"No worse. I mean she was just blown away. Why did I do that? She's rich and powerful Gwen. Look at me Resa. I'm just Miguel, Plain common Miguel."
Theresa stared at her brother. "There is nothing Plain or Common about you Miguel." Theresa informed her brother. "You have so much to offer. Look at you Miguel, you are strong and intellgent. Forget Gwen's money Miguel. Forget all about her social status, do you have feelings for her?" Theresa questioned.
"I think so." Miguel said confussed.' That's the thing I'm not sure. I love spending time with her, and I know when I'm with her I can't help but feel like I'm floating. But Resa I'm younger than her, I mean I'm still in college and she'll be taking over a huge business soon. We would never work."
Theresa smiled. "Isn't that what they said about Luis and Sheridan? But look at the love they shared Miguel."
Miguel nodded. "But I'm still a lot younger than that. I mean Gwen will want to marry soon, and me and Marriage aren't two words that go together right now."
"Marriage? Who said anything about Marriage? Miguel can't you two just take your time? Get to know each other? See what happens."
"So you think I'm being foolish?" Miguel questioned.
Theresa laughed. "No Miggie I think you are falling hard for Gwen. And the way she talks about you, I'm sure she is feeling the same. "
"So just play it by ear?" Miguel questioned his body relaxing.
"That's my advice." Theresa said sitting down.
"I suppose I overreacted." Miguel said sitting down beside his sister. "I don't know what happened. I was so calm about it last night. I even calmed her down. But then I got home and replayed it in my mind and just lost it."
Theresa nodded. "I totally understand."
"How about you Resa? Anything interesting happen for you last night?" He smirked.
"Not really. " Theresa said with a serious face. "Chad dropped me off and said goodnight then left."
"That's it?" Miguel questioned frowning.
Theresa smirked. "Well he did come back and tell me he had feelings for me. Then we decided to try to make something work. But other than that it was a normal night." She beamed.
Miguel let a smile spread across his face. "So he finally admitted it. Its about time you two got it together. "
Theresa laughed. "Were we the last two people in Harmony to figure out what was going on between us Miguel?"
"I think so. Everyone else knew you two were crazy about each other. We were all beginning to think we'd have to force you two to admit it."
Theresa looked at her brother her face glowing. "Well we know now."
"I'm happy for you sis. Chad Harris is a great guy."
Theresa nodded. "He's one of the best."
"Theresa do you think papa would be happy with the way our lives have turned out?" Miguel suddenly asked.
Theresa gave him a strange look. "Miguel our lives are changing daily. But yeah I think he'd be Ok with it. Truth is I don't really remember Papa. But the stories mama tells us makes me think he'd be happy that I've became successful, and he'd be so proud of how strong you are."
"You really think so?" Miguel asked.
"Yes I think so. I know I'm proud of you. You're a good person Miggie."
"So are you Sis."
Theresa smiled. "Do you remember when we hated each other?" She asked arching her eyebrows.
"You mean when we were little and you were Luis's favorite?" Miguel teased.
"Was not. Besides you were mama's favorite. Her baby boy."
Miguel pointed at himself and smiled "Hey I'm still her baby boy Missy."
"Indeed you are. " Theresa agreed.
Miguel raked his hands through his hair. "So what do you think Gwen is doing right now?" He questioned a childish grin on his face.
Shaking her head Theresa laughed. " I’m sure she’s reacting just like you. Miguel I thought I’d never say this, but Gwen’s a great person, just don’t think to hard, let your heart feel its way into this one."
Miguel grinned. "Now that’s the Theresa I remember. Let me heart feel? Its been awhile since I heard you talk like that."
Theresa blushed. "Its been awhile since I felt that way." Theresa took in a breath and smiled, for the first time in months she was looking forward to seeing what the rest of the day had in store.
~*~*~*~

"I don’t have feelings for him! I do not want him! I am not falling for Miguel!" Gwen yelled at her mirror. She stood in her bedroom in her pajamas and robe, her hair in a messy ponytail, she wasn’t in the mood for work, or anything else for that matter. Miguel had kissed her, he had sent her sailing into a place she had never been. She remembered caring for Ethan, she never questioned it. But this was different, with Miguel she felt like she was soaring one second and the next she was wondering who she was. They done all these common things together, things her parents never let her try as a child. The strange thing was she enjoyed it, just being with Miguel made her happy.
"Stop doing this to yourself." She suddenly blurted shaking her head. "I can not fall for a 21 year old boy. "
Taking a deep breath she looked over at a picture of her and Sheridan and smiled. "Sher, what would you tell me to do? Girl, what in the world would you say to me." She sighed.
"She’d say you’d found yourself the next best thing to Luis." A voice rang out.
Gwen turned around and smiled. "Ivy, when did you come in?"
"The maid let me in. Gwen dear, do you have feelings for Miguel?" Ivy smiled.
Gwen fell down on her bed. " I don’t want to have feelings for Miguel. Ivy, I’m 29 years old, he’s 21. We are nothing alike."
Ivy laughed. "Gwen darling, 29 year old men marry 21 year old women everyday, you and I both know age isn’t the issue. "
"Ivy, he kissed me last night. And I know it shouldn’t have meant much. I mean it was just a kiss, but I felt like I was floating. Like I used to feel with Ethan." Gwen frowned.
Ivy shook her head. "Gwen, its ok to care about Miguel. There is nothing wrong with it. I know you haven’t dated a lot since Ethan, but dear don’t you think its time to start?"
"My mother will hate me." Gwen frowned.
"Your mother will deal with it. Miguel is a good person, don’t run from what you’re feeling dear."
Gwen smiled. "Ivy, I’m so glad you came by, you told me just what I needed to hear."
Ivy laughed. "Well now let me tell you what I came here for in the first place. Julian and I are holding a party this weekend at our home. "
"A party?"
"Yes, a party to celebrate our love." Ivy smiled. "I’ve finally fell in love with my husband and we want the world to know it."